Last week, I read an article about a young mother who had such bad undiagnosed postpartum depression that she took her own life when her daughter was 4 months old. While this example may seem extreme, postpartum depression has different severities and so many women that are diagnosed with it can have such different symptoms. Some women feel it for a couple of weeks and some can still struggle with it for several months or well past the first year after giving birth. Postpartum depression is so difficult to speak about and acknowledge because having a baby should be the most joyful time of your life. One always hears of all the good stories and how amazing having a child is, especially on social media, but why don’t we talk about the sadness more? Is it because we don’t want to scare others? Maybe we feel like we are the ONLY ONE in the universe that feels like this.
I had the hardest time after giving birth to Elise, who is my first born. I was not diagnosed with postpartum depression, but looking back I know I had it for the first 5 weeks after giving birth. I have read so many stories of what women feel and go through when dealing with postpartum. These are the things I struggled with the most.
Going From A Family Of 2 To 3
Gone are the days where your entire schedule did not revolve around another human being. I remember when we took Elise home from the hospital. I was eating dinner about to get ready to pull my second all nighter with her and I just cried. I was so sad that it wasn’t Dustin and me anymore. I felt so sad that we couldn’t just leave when we wanted or watch a marathon of our favorite show on a rainy day. I felt my life suddenly stop and shift so suddenly that I honestly didn’t know if we would ever go back to the way things were before.CONTINUE READING